Dismay: To upset or alarm.
I feel the life draining out of me,
never did I wish this would be,
I feel as if i have let you down,
I don't want you to be in the ground.
I feel for you and wish you are well,
I really wish that I could tell,
you that I love you and see your face,
I have been a huge disgrace.
Please forgive me as I have fallen,
into the selfishness of humanity,
for you I will mourn, I promise you this,
and I also seal it with a kiss.
